Nerves and Real Names

February 6, 2019

I wasn’t even sure if I wanted to share this site with the broader community through TIV, given it was supposed to be my somewhat private space. Obviously, it’s on the interwebs so it’s openly public. But having it attached to TIV, meant losing some of the anonymity.

Now that I have, I’m glad I did.

It’s led to responses from two people/sites I’ve been following for a bit, h0p3’s wiki and Kicks Condor. Along with complimentary responses from @jack and @eli on

These are conversations that I’m excited to be part of. However, though I was excited to see my name pop up in these other places, my first thought was shit, that’s my real name.” I was a bit confused at first, but then realized, I talked about HL on TIV, which goes out to, where I used my real name.

Thinking back to my conversation with Kicks Condor, I think part of the difference I saw between TIV and HL was the perceived anonymity I had with HL. I had no problem with my name being associated with TIV and even though the link between the two sites always and will continue to exist, the connection that existed between HL and my name never really crossed my mind.

To be clear, I don’t necessarily have a problem with my name being attached, it was just a surprise.

This is something I’m going to think about for a little bit, along with tidbits from my conversation with Kicks.


2/8/19 12:20 - saw a note on h0p3’s wiki around this1, that I found a bit discouraging, but mostly due to my own fault. I never had the intention to associate this or TIV to my real name and neither actually contain my name anywhere within. Either unintentionally or I just completely forgot, my name was associated with my account2, which has TIV syndicated to. Then with the link of HL to TIV, there’s the link between and HL. I thought about asking those who have used my last name to replace it with something else, such as my account name, but I’m not keen on the idea of policing other people’s sites. For now those few sites act as the only tie between my sites and my name, which isn’t too worrisome.

  1. although I don’t think h0p3 has actually read this based on the note.

  2. I removed it when I made this realization, seeing my name on Kicks Condor.


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